Vanity: My favorite sin

A lot of people these days talk about Karma. What goes up comes down. They even made a series on this and I like Earl Hickey and his ex-wife and crab man. I am not saying that "My Name Is Earl" is a great TV series but its definitely a good time pass. Yes, I am seeking redemption but it is definitely not in the way Charlie did it in Mean Streets. They should make a religion like this where you confess your sins and you are forgiven. I don't know how people say that they don't have any regrets. I have loads of regrets. They are so many that I can't even count them. I am never able to admit that I have made a mistake. It is very hard for me to say something like "I am sorry". I would rather not talk to a person than say sorry to him. Here is the list of the deadliest sins (I have used couple of quotes because some people have articulated it better than I ever could):

Pride: I think that I am the center of the universe. I am quite sure that modesty is not a virtue, it might be a vice.

Envy: I very easily get jealous of people over small things. Mainly with my elder sister. I always had.. rather I always have the feeling that she has got everything and on the other hand I have nothing. Anyone who has met my family knows that she is the favored one. My parents deny it but even my sister accepts it.

Gluttony: I am 170 cms and I am 78 kgs. You do the math.

Lust: Its very hard for me to be just friends with a girl. At some point of time I am bound to be attracted to her in a sexual way.

Wrath: I do not get into fights but I have done some things in the past that I am not proud of. I don't let go that easily. I am too much of a sissy to have a one to one fight but I make sure that at some point in future they pay for what they had done.

Greed: What I want is everything. Greed, for lack of a better word, is good. Greed is right. Greed works. Greed clarifies, cuts through and captures the essence of the evolutionary spirit. Greed, in all of it's forms - greed for life, for money, knowledge - has marked the upward surge of mankind.

Sloth: I am so lazy that sometimes I do not go to eat lunch because I will to go down from the third floor. I have not called my parents informing them about the loss of mobile phone because I will have to go the phone booth. I haven't even lodged an FIR.

Why am I doing all this? Well, I don't believe in God but I am afraid of him.

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My mails to MindSport did not go waste and one of the two did get published. Unfortunately I wasn't able to see my name in print because in Kharagpur we get the big city edition. I found out today that MindSport is a bigger section in small city editions like Patna, Bilaspur, etc. in which you can read my entry in print. However, in big city editions like Kolkata, Delhi, etc. it was left out. My hatred for TOI is based on reason but once again they have made it personal (For the third time!!!). I know what you are thinking. Scroll up.